Today's post was written by Kelsie Baer, a junior at Samford University who leads a college small group through Brook Hills.

My life fully belongs to the Lord. I know that sin in me still denies this and that my attitudes and thoughts so often contradict this statement. But still, I truly mean it – my life belongs to Him completely. Two years ago, I could not say that because I knew it was not true. For eight months, I fought Him. I was so afraid to give everything up to him because it might mean losing what I so desperately wanted. And He said to me…

Remember who I am – I am your good Father. I want your entire heart. I have all knowledge, all wisdom, all power – who are you to consider your plans greater than mine? My child, listen to me. Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from me, the Father of the heavenly lights. You run from me like a child runs from a parent who has taken away a knife from her hands. You scream at me, "It’s beautiful! I want it!" – and I see that it will kill you. Trust me. I have given you myself. Look at me, and find your treasure in me. I have set you free, and you are sitting in your cell with your fists clenched around your broken chains. Remember what I have done. I have sacrificed everything for you. Why are you afraid to surrender everything to me?

This past summer, I was a room leader at Campus Outreach’s summer beach project. I could say the right things about God’s sufficiency in weakness, but subconsciously, I still believed leadership meant perfection. Failure weighed heavily on my heart. I saw my sin. I found myself incapable of loving the girls in my room. And He said to me…

Remember how I walked the earth. The Son lived in total reliance on the Father – how much more should you do the same? I separated myself and spent hours with my Father in prayer. So you also should pursue me first and foremost. Remember how I reached out and touched those whom society rejected. Remember how I looked into the faces of those who killed me and interceded for them, forgave them, and died for even them. Remember how I humbled myself more than your mind could ever comprehend. I willingly gave up perfect communion with the Father and became a servant – became a man. Remember how I answered those who came to my feet in desperation. Do the same. Come to me in total helplessness, sit at my feet, learn from me, and I will teach you. Remember that my grace has poured over your life and cleansed you of all your sin. Because of my sacrifice, you are free. You are free from condemnation and free to follow me. I will show you what it means to lead – it means following ME.

I get caught up in the things Christians do. We study our Bibles, we pray, we lead other people, we share the gospel, we encourage one another. I want to do those things more; I want to do those things better. But I forget why all too easily. And He says to me…

Remember Me. Have you forgotten who I am? I AM the spring of living water. I AM the resurrection and the life. I AM the One who carries your burdens. I AM the bread of life. I AM the Creator of all things – it was through Me that everything in existence was brought into existence. I AM the way. I AM the truth. I AM the life. I AM the good shepherd. I AM the light of the world. I AM the spotless lamb that was slaughtered for your sins. I AM the eternal king, I have all authority and all power – and I AM the one who freely gave himself for you. I am your only hope. Come to Me. Don’t ever forget who I AM.

When I stumble, the only thing I need to be reminded of is who God is, what He has done, and who I am because of Him. Remembering these things – remembering the gospel – brings my eyes back to His face and sets my heart at rest. Lord, please give us grace to remember.

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